It’s been two years since I last wrote a blog. So much has happened during my hiatus. I turned fifty and felt the urge to start writing again on my brother’s birthday. I’ve also been married for a year, which might come as a surprise. I joined a sorority that motivates me to step out of my comfort zone and take action rather than making excuses. I even changed my hair from a natural afro to natural locs!! I only have time for positive energy and surround myself with peace and tranquility. 

So what exactly have I been doing within my two-year hiatus? I finally have someone who protects, provides, respects and treats me like a queen. He allows me to be my pure, authentic self. His kind spirit is what attracted me. The way he loves and respects his mother and father is also what made me fall in love with him. He intentionally tries to please or help others even when it costs him. Seriously, he sacrificed so much to make others happy instead of himself. His selflessness is what drew me closer to him. Having a good man with a caring spirit, taking pride in making other people happy instead of himself, is a beautiful thing. He did this privately, without others knowing that he was blessing so many people with his giving spirit. I found someone who is my equal. This is just the beginning for us.

Then, I joined an organization that allowed me to utilize my servant leadership style and meet new people who will forever be a part of my life. I am gaining more leadership opportunities. I have sponsored, directed, volunteered, and been a part of so many beautiful programs and organizations since I last wrote a blog! I can participate in programs and activities that give me the courage to step outside of what makes me comfortable. I have gotten comfortable with being uncomfortable. 

Speaking of being uncomfortable, I had an opportunity to change my career path of over 25 years, and I missed the mark. I was confident the first 5 days working on my portfolio, but as the time came closer; I got so nervous the night before the actual interview. I think I signed on 30 minutes before the actual time because my nerves were so bad!! hahaha!! Hell, I haven’t been in an interview in a long time; and it showed when I finally got the opportunity to advance in my career!! I kicked myself after I realized how bad I did!! hahaha!! But, I wouldn’t change the experience for anything!! Do I wish I could get another chance to interview? Of course. But I know that I needed that experience to prepare me for the next one. I would not have learned if I never had the opportunity. I was fortunate to even make it to an interview there! I never thought I would have the opportunity to be in the same space with other professionals that have grown into their purpose.

I will hit many potholes and roadblocks along the way, but I know that where I am supposed to be will happen in due time. I am ready to change my occupational title. I never felt so stagnant and complacent in my life as I do right now. I know there is more for me to achieve; therefore, I am taking the steps to make that happen. If I don’t try and take chances; I will continue to be in the same position. 

The beauty of evolving can be a scary path. But in the end, it can be such a rewarding gift in life. To experience something worth more than money, status, and material things. I’ve been overwhelmed with ideas, duties, and blessings beyond my wildest dreams. I am no longer that person I was 30, 20, and 10 years ago. I am beginning to evolve into a better version of myself. I’m taking the steps necessary for me to step out of my comfort zone and guide myself to my true potential. That means that I have to be willing to accept rejections, criticism, and constant re-vamping until I get it right. Being optimistic is what keeps me going. Believing in the beauty of it all will get you through it.